Wow...
from the beginning of the year till the end of the year, i must have skipped about 10 months for this blog..
i guess looking back, university wasnt that much of a shock to me. i guess i just adjust very fast compared to many people. i've met some friends who couldnt cope with university and had to miss a couple weeks of school because they werent used to it O_O...
its been quite a stressing year, especially considering IVEY, stupid business school. i swear they were formed to con students for money. everytime they set up events that are about 100$ to go to, and if you dont then you fail in life... haha
but im not saying it was all normal, there were some pretty big changes. for one thing im not getting along with someone at all, for about the first time in my life. everytime i see her i get angry and frusterated, so i try to avoid being in the same room as them. its very strange and unique... i guess... but i dont think this would happen again with anyone else.
otherwise its been pretty fun, but bland. i feel like i really miss something. i feel like im missing the art that i used to do, the music i used to play, and lately i keep thinking about how nice it would be to be outside when its the evening and its dark, and warm, and you could just sit down and look at the stars, like how it was in china. im excited to go back. im thinking about being back in calgary, maybe visiting the highschool again, making fun of those little highschool kids... =)... or just walking around with people doing nothing, maybe eating icecream, maybe chasing ducks around =P, maybe watching a funny movie or humming songs together.
its all those things you get to do when you're little and you're carefree and you're naive, where you dont have to worry about stupid things that grownups have to worry about, about what to do to be successful, how to make money, wat to do for the future
i think i missed out on wat its like to be a kid. i dont think i ever appreciated it enough, about being a kid and playing around. growing up is kind of frightening.
the other thing thats been bothering me is my parents. this year, being away from them, i think i've started to worry about them alot more, about how they're feeling, if they're lonely. it makes me really upset to think about this, and about how they're aging... reminds me of how cruel time is. wouldnt it be great if time just stopped moving and we could all live as it is now forever?
im excited to be back in calgary. miss the "good old days"... haha... i guess we all do a little.
