boo....

I'm sad. I think my friend is mad at me but I don't know why. Today was cities for badminton tournaments and we both went to watch. He was sick so I was worried, and I told him to go home. And then he stopped talking to me and told me to piss off T__T. *really depressed*. I guess I'll talk to him tomorrow... I'm really scared though, I hate conflicts... hate being misunderstood... but what can you do...

Frank did well today, although he lost both his games. They were good games and I was proud of him. But I guess he felt worse and worse after the game so he was pretty unhappy when we left too... and yelled at me on the c-train *sniff*. But Ivy did well, she got to zones even with asthma. I'm incredibly happy for her. She got interviewed by Calgary Herald too! Look for her picture in the newspaper everyone lol. Too bad my day wasn't great lol... recently something bad always seems to happen everyday. Or maybe I'm just in another state of depression.

Someday things will start looking up. I'm going to be Ivy's official Godsis one day, after she turns 18. It'll be fun ^^.

This picture is by Kagaya by the way.

Jade

This is the ... 4th? time i tried to do a more realistic person... this one turned out very well! I'm very happy with the colros and her face... particularly hands! That took forever to do.

Today was an okay day... I skipped badminton because of the crazy snow, and because I got sick again.. for the 5th time in a month. I kicked off my blanket last night so i woke up from freezing... and by that time I was already sick... SIGH...

I'm so dizzy right now I don't want to go anywhere... but I have work tomorrow. Why does life have to be so cruel! *sniff*

CG art work! ><

Today completely went downhill after Chem class. Had a huge spat with Frank, people actually rolled down their windows because they thought he was going to hit me or something, which he would never do. It was actually quite funny. I ended up being a water fountain again, not that it's not a common occurance lately. I'm a water fountain for approximately 3 out of 7 days now, and it's actually pretty tiring, especially after it goes on for 3 months. Apparently being a water fountain isn't relieving my stress the way it's supposed to.

Anyway... yay! This is one of the more recent pictures I did on computer... photoshop. Photoshop is heaven, seriously. I'm quite happy with the improvements in the picture from the earlier pictures I did, through copying styles from HeiSe (lol). I've just realized that most artists use a model when they draw, which makes it much easier when designing something... but unfortunately I don't have such a thing so my memory will have to make do. I'm happy with his facial proportions although the shading makes him look incredibly funny... *tear*... but I'll learn... slowly... eventually......

There's two copies of the same picture in different colors... I was experimenting with colors. It's interesting to note how they affect the picture so much. I personally prefer the blue one.

Boohoo.. my first badminton play off

Today I played my first badminton play off tournament ever! It was very sad and disappointing, but very educational. I learned that I have absolutely no stamina compared to other people. But I did discover some really good hits, which made me happy... though I was too tired to use them by the end. There are some pretty amazing people at the tournament... I lost 5 out of 7 games *cries*. But my 21-5 score was my pride and joy heh. Anyway, it was a fun tournament, I was pretty disappointed since it was so terribly close... tied for fourth place and lost my tie breaker game by 2 points: 22-20. So close to making it to cities!! How can anyone be closer!!! So I complained to everyone I talked to and now I feel better haha. And I realized that it doesn't matter that much to me really, I didn't want to go to cities that much anyway (lol I'm not being sour grapes >.>). So it was a fun tournament and I learned a lot.

Today's artwork is by HeiSe. It's so pretty that it made me happy ^_^. How she managed to get that temple in the background I will never know =_=.

my first few CG artworks!

In light of those beautiful pictures by amazing artists, here are some sad attempts of me trying to reach their level... unsuccessfully. I made them small, just click to see a larger version.

Peace

Still experimenting with my journal page... it's a very difficult task for a computer illiterate person like me. While trying to figure out the page i ran across a collection of pictures I had stashed in my computer... They're very beautiful like the one I have here, makes me feel peaceful. Whoever did this drawing is a genius.

*Sigh* there's a couple of artists I really admire on the web right now. I'm leaning towards CG art more and more, it just looks so natural and beautiful. Makes me sad to think I'm still so far behind those artists... not to mention I'm computer illiterate... I completely don't understand how they can paste such intricate backgrounds from other pictures or make the effects, etc etc... I feel lost. People do compliment me, but in reality my art is nothing. There's such a big step I have to take, to reach their levels. I feel kind of scared and kind of like I'm losing hope of ever being that skilled. It's the same with music too. But all in all, the artwork is beautiful to enjoy. My two favorite artists are Kagaya, which is the artist of the picture here, and HeiSeJinYao, nicknamed Heise (chinese!! I'm so proud of you). I'll probably be uploading their pictures some more. They're just so nice!

BLARGH

My attempt to figure out how to use this blog isn't working very well... why can't i get a nice heading like other people's?? *angry*.... off to experiment some more